The Limits of Curiosity

i.

I should not care much for the formality of marriage
I had no idea such perversities existed.
Words were not accurate enough,
Nor delicate enough,
To express or trace the thrilling influence
Of passion and its power.

Gone is the low, even hum
The throb of activity.
It wearies me to go over all this again.
I don’t want to be teased on this subject,
But I appeal as a critic of it
Not as a master.

Look at it from the other side:
Such experiences are not pleasant.
All who have insight and education
Will automatically, at some point in their life
Have their own private temptation
Against the sweet veil of their daily aspect.

ii.

ˇCuba! Ever since I had been a childˇ
It had been a magic name.

I was only aware of something, large, brilliant
And handsome
Moving towards me as I entered the room.
A young man smiling with poisonous benevolence.
As soon as my eagerness could rest in silence,
Looking nervously up for a sneer, a giggle,
The least sign of mockery
The last form of fallacy
Hardly knowing how I did it,
I contrived to utter a few polite phrases in French.

Nobody breathed a word.
Once again, the audience was enchanted.
Not only is there a partial mystery
There is a continual mystery, caused through all spaces--
It dwells on vulgar conditions of wonder and horror.
As for women--there’s so much to talk about.

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Tension December 1996